We all have something in common; our energetic make up.  Whether we choose to acknowledge that part of ourselves or not, it’s there; waiting to be sorted out and supported.  A lot of people ask me how they can become more whole, more integrated with life, more connected to their truths, and the answer depends on the person asking the question.  Everyone’s best first step differs, but since you start where you are, the best step is always the first one you make. Here’s what I mean:

Imagine a circle.  Along the perimeter of this circle are tasks you can complete to enrich your experience on this planet by connecting your whole self together.  I want you to draw dots with your mind, on random points around the circle.  Now picture yourself in the middle.  You are a bigger dot, the center of the bulls-eye.  Draw a line starting in the middle and with that willy-nilly attitude that I know you have, just start connecting.  Don’t redraw the circle, don’t make spokes, connect one to the other, and to you, with random intention. Create a picture that is not at all symmetrical or even aesthetically pleasing. Modern art, you, the way.  My experience with modern art galleries over the past few years has left me quite uncomfortable and confused.  This is what your drawing should do.

The path to a fuller you has no linear course.  You work on what comes up.  You move with the energy of your system and it will always guide you to where you want to go.  All you have to do is pay attention and be willing to let go of what is no longer serving you.  The best example of this I can relay, comes from my beginner aura seeing class.  Students can normally see their own energy (their aura) within five minutes.  They get excited and some get freaked out, but they see it; some even see color on their first try, which is quite remarkable.  Then the party-crasher comes to town, and about half of them lose it.  What is this awful deterrence of growth?  It’s not our parents coming home and turning on the lights and kicking everyone out, it’s not the hallucinogenic drugs we didn’t do prior to our experiment, it’s the mind.  The mind kicks in and says, “yo, that’s whack!  You can’t see what isn’t there and since you didn’t notice it in ALL the years you’ve been alive, then it is obviously a trick I am playing on you. Show some respect, crawl back into your shell and try not to grow anymore, OK?”  It happens every time. Even the most natural of seers gets caught up in this.  This scenario fits every growth situation in your life, not just in the arena of seeing energy.  This is where most people stop.

To embark on this journey and get anything out of it, you have to develop trust.  The next step is often far from view, and the path – as shown in your circle drawing – is more than wiggly. It makes no sense before you reach the next outer dot.  If you were given driving directions that looked like that you’d start laughing and throw it back at the person handing it to you.  The difference between driving maps and the map you made above is the destination.  You are developing knowledge about yourself and not seeking to end up anywhere else.  So don’t throw the map you made away; though, you do have permission to laugh.

So where to find your first step?  You can do it right now.  Look around you and notice if any one particular object that you can see from your chair is shining brighter than the others.  What catches your eye?  If it is a a flower, then look up the flower meaning online. If it’s an animal, then see what the totem meaning of that animal is.  If it’s a book, grab it and open it up to a random page and see what it says.  Maybe you are gazing out the window at the moon.  Dig in, whatever it is.  Everything means something and has now become a clue.  Chickadees and master chirpers alike use life like this in order to understand what is happening on our many levels.  It’s quite genius if you get it.  The outer life reflecting the inner life takes the pressure off of constantly having to scan every system that we have. Let your environment show you what to do, and also let it show you that you are supported.

I’ve been releasing old patterns lately and tend to be tough on myself if I feel anger or loss.  I forget that these are a part of life, and just want to jump back into being the chipper gal that I am.  While on the deck yesterday I noticed how lovely the hydrangea bush looked and decided to take some in to my desk.  When I got upstairs I decided to look up what the hydrangea flower essence meant.  It’s all about releasing old patterns and their emotions with tenderness and ease.  This is what I’m talking about.  I’d never worked with the hydrangea plant before, and here was a helping hand growing in my yard.  This will happen to you again and again if you let it.   Using clues will help you to develop trust in yourself and ease that raucous mind of yours.  Besides, doesn’t it add a little spark to the day when you’re not just going from A to B?  Life is now a treasure hunt and the X on the map is you.